a difficult family member diagnosis,
another family member fighting for her last days here.
sleepless nights.

this is life right now.
i find myself repeating the phrases,
"i will choose joy."
"this sucks."
"i need You."
"i can't do this."
"moment by moment."
multiple times a day.

days are spent cuddling,
yelling and screaming,
in the bath tub,
outside walks.
our days are long and slow.
a blessing and a curse.

but this is a season.
just a season kate.
this too shall pass...

have i mentioned how much we love our sakura bloom slings?
keeps littles nice and close, away from sickies! 
which we need all the help we can get!